I have just attended Spencer and Stef's Wedding..


And i am truly amazed at how creative they are.. They printed their photos on stamps and its absolutely gorgeous.

Its always nice to see the rest of the ppl all dressed up at weddings. I saw many that i havent seen for ages, and to be frank, its really nice to see them.

Irregardless of what happened in the past, its really a nice feeling to see everyone there.


I realised that i have taken a more peaceful way of handling things. Of cos, there are a few that i have not much to talk to.. but, I still tried my best to talk to them.. Maybe its just i havent seen them for a long time.. heh heh..


The day started as early as 530am.. monster woke up and prepared.. and he woke me up as well.. I didnt want to go cos carol, katt and Maureen all gotten the same dress and shoes.. I didnt want to spend anymore so i gave it a miss..


Me continued to slp until about 9.. and i woke up went back as my mom was out of town.. I needed to be back to do the chores.. My blood nearly boiled when i opened my door.. The whole place was in a mess and stinky! So i spent the whole morning tidying up, washing clothes, wash the dishes, etc..


And the second half of the day, i was practically lazing on my bed wondering what to wear to the dinner.. I decided not to wear too formal as it was held at a restaurant.. who knowss... I am the most casual there.. -_-

But i enjoyed myself there.. hee..


After wards was clubbing at st james with the whole lot of ppl.. wasnt really keen on going as my feets are tired.. haha.. but been a long time since the whole lot of us went.. =)

Stupid monster went off walking around by himself.. Yes i was partying away.. But i was so tired.. wanted to leave.. and i couldnt find him.. to make things worse, my phone is not working.. Imagine my frustration..

Its was raining super heavily so i was trapped inside.. and i went around roaming, managed to catch him walking around aimlessly.. I told him i was quite frustrated.. How can he just walk away.. and he said he was feeling tired as well, so he went around looking for a place to sit..

So in the end, we all decided to go back..

Had a long talk with him.. He says i need to give him room for mistakes.. and i was like.. huh?? Did i not?? If i did not, i would have walked out.. Does giving room for others' mistakes means that i cannot be angry by what they do?

He said last time Cindy would go out to search for him, and walk quietly behind his back like a xiao nu ren.. For me, i need to find out what is the reason behind whatever he is doing before i decide if i should follow suit..

Ya, This i have to agree.. I am someone who do not like the feeling of not knowing what i am doing.. Maybe i am a control freak.. I make sure everything is organized properly..

So its irritating.. But, i am not angry..

Maybe i should learn to take a more relaxed manner to life.. Haha.. Everything bo chup!!

I think i will be happier that way.. =)

Also, after talking to him.. I realised that there's something about me that i dont like.. But i just cant put my finger to it.. I actually miss the navive and innocent side of myself.. and I forgotten about the basic rule..

I used to believe that if i can make everyone i care happy, i would be happy too..

Maybe, i am just missing this part......